Of course you're alright. You're alive.

John Mayer,

you did it again.

In all seriousness, John Mayer’s music has been the soundtrack to my entire life since I was in seventh grade. Every song of his I can relate to something going on, and without his music and words, expressing what I really cannot say would have been impossible. It has always been my goal to affect someone in such a way that John Mayer affected me. Call me pathetic, but the genuine love I have for all of his music is what defines a true, wholesome fan. His new album is blowing me away track by track and I couldn’t be happier.

“Don’t say a word, just come over and lie here with me. Cause I’m just about to set fire to everything I see. I want you so bad, I’ll go back on the things I believe-there I just said it. I’m scared you’ll forget about me.”

and it's a painful thought to try another start

two thousand, four hundred and ninety two miles until I hit the next stepping stone in my life.

I don’t really know what to think-it’s hitting me in stages. A stomach clench, a tight breath, a smile that comes out of absolutely nowhere. I’m 75 percent extremely excited and in the phase of can’tfuckingwait but the rest of me is nervous and terrified and not sure if I’m making the right choice. But, it’s too late to think about all of this now. I’m ready, I’m fucking beyond ready to move on and start over. I’m ready for palm trees and beautiful sunsets and Mesa Community College and not driving to different cities every week because I’m looking to fill this huge hole in my heart. I know I’m going to be lonely, and I know this is not going to be easy, but for once this is a risk I’m willing to take.

See you in a month, Arizona. I sure hope you’re ready for a girl bursting out of her own 5’6” frame, full of ideas and words and looking to change the world. I can’t wait to see you.

I keep hearing the noise on the interstate
Lit up like fireworks
And I’m driving thousands of miles
Turn on the nightlight, there’s no sleep tonight